posted 8 hours ago @ 21 Oct 2014
xmun is tired xThank you all who helped me get through this xreality wake up call or slap to the face with realization xi should of been in bed like an hour ago hehe xbut a much needed explanation for many things xwill be coming tomorrow

pinkeyesandcherrypie:

howlblack:

Pained agonizing wailing.

image

(➹)—[tugs close]

[says nothing really, just holds Howl as close as he can. the poor boy.]

Keeps up his crying, coughing as he sputters on the tears, pulls blankets over his eyes as he keeps crying.

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xpinkeyesandcherrypie x;main verse x*ugly sobbing on Vaz* QAQ

Pained agonizing wailing.

posted 9 hours ago @ 21 Oct 2014 with 2 notes
xMuse is expressing exactly how mun is feeling x//it's all my fault I'm the reason why Howl makes a mess of everything xits me I'm the reason I've out the worse of me in Howl and everyone is getting tired of it xof me its all my fault

((That earth stilling realization you gave your muse one of your unexplainable fears))

posted 9 hours ago @ 21 Oct 2014
xmun talk xWow I never realized it till now xi'm the reason Howl fears something rather unexplainable

'…….i just made everything worse'

posted 10 hours ago @ 20 Oct 2014
xMuse Talk xMuse is expressing exactly how mun is feeling xweh i felt like that didn't go well =n=

argentatephoenix:

howlblack:

When the cold wet nose pressed against Howl’s cheek before being replaced with a warm tongue licking his tears away. He knew it was Val but Howl knew it wasn’t forgiveness and it pained him receiving this comfort when he did not deserve it.

Howl kept his head down even as Val kept licking the tears away, a small bit or relief flooded through him when Pho spoke up. Though he did kinda wanted to be away from this place for now, but he’s glad Pho will be with him. Carefully getting up Howl walked over to Pho’s side and gently buried his head in her side. 

He apologized but deep down he felt he did more harm than good.

Perhaps a bit true, some damage had been done but the sincerity of things was what she had wanted to see. Phoenix could only hope she was not butting in too far with everything. She knew Seraphina was not looking, so she only sent a brush against their link. Letting her know she would talk to her soon.

Focusing on Howl, she set a hand on one of his shoulders, before leaning forward. It was gentle and it was chaste, a brief touch to the top of Valrun’s head to convey that she was sorry without being overwhelmingly affectionate to the boy she’d been growing close to for a little over a month.

Nothing else was said as she walked out with Howl, hand remaining on his back instead of his shoulder, quiet support as they descended into the lush greenery and toward a quiet secluded spot that was more Pho’s home then her little hideaway in the mountains.

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xThe End xargentatephoenix xofdeathandfear xmotherovernature

argentatephoenix:

ofdeathandfear:

motherovernature:

The spirit balked, her grip in her blankets was tight, her face turned away with hair shielding her expression. This was for Valrun, not for her, she was doing this for him, helping him heal. She would be fine, given the chance to swallow this incident.

She was use to being turned around into the bad guy, to the one who had done wrong or was a danger and threat. She could swallow it.

Family or not she could let it go, and just not care anymore.

Defense mechanism, that if she was feared on no grounds she gave a reason, and pushed the antagonist away. 

But it was some one she had called sibling, and had done a number of things to meet his needs when she could, and protect him. 

That hurt… but like all pain she’d sear it closed and let it scar. In time the pain would fade, and she’d forget.

'Mother Nature.' Though it was her proper title, it seemed so formal. Distanced. Ugly. And Valrún knew she was anything but. She was kind and loving and deserved to be called by her name.

In his head, the boy corrected Howl each time. Sera. Her name is Seraphina. Sera. Sera. Not Mother Nature. That’s her title, not her name. She is family, don’t call her by her title.

But such thoughts go unsaid. He hadn’t the courage to open his mouth again.

Only when he smelled Howl’s tears did Valrún lift his head from his paws. No. No more pain. It hurt to smell. Hurt to know it was all around. The little hound couldn’t take it. He had to help in some way. Even if the goal of this was to help him feel better, it wasn’t what was happening.

Carefully, the black dog extracted himself from beneath the bed. Driven by loyalty. Driven by love. Driven by a driving need to comfort the source of so much pain. He licked Howl’s tears from his cheek. 

It wasn’t forgiveness. Not yet. There was still a vital lack of trust for that. But providing comfort didn’t require trust. It only required a compassionate heart.

To be clear, the shifter learned a number of things in that moment. Howl over reacted to most everything. Yes they were powerful people but they had emotion and love for the boy. Her own chest tightened at the fact he could not believe that.

The thankful thing of this was it had not ended in a chaotic and painful heap. The start was what she had suggested of Howl, he had been sincere, but he had also drawn on his big sisters pain deeper. She would talk to him later, the same manner as this all had begun.

Only then after observing Val did her eyes trail forward to nothing in particular and she closed them, silent for a time before gently standing and finally opening her mouth.

"Howl, we’ll let Valrun and Seraphina think through things. Rest with me in my spot here in the glen because I do not have the energy to fly back to Russia." 

The need to do things on their own now was vital and she grasped that. Maybe after Howl slept she would go to Seraphina for brief thoughts. Just keep some ease of the pain and take things slow.

When the cold wet nose pressed against Howl’s cheek before being replaced with a warm tongue licking his tears away. He knew it was Val but Howl knew it wasn’t forgiveness and it pained him receiving this comfort when he did not deserve it.

Howl kept his head down even as Val kept licking the tears away, a small bit or relief flooded through him when Pho spoke up. Though he did kinda wanted to be away from this place for now, but he’s glad Pho will be with him. Carefully getting up Howl walked over to Pho’s side and gently buried his head in her side. 

He apologized but deep down he felt he did more harm than good.

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xmotherovernature xargentatephoenix xofdeathandfear xthis can be the end unless Sera and Val wish to add anything

argentatephoenix:

ofdeathandfear:

motherovernature:

There was a bitterness that rose like bile inside of her like acidic bile in her throat. The fear that rolled off of Howl was extremely high, and it hurt. She turned her attention away, toward the window and focused on the scenery outside. 

She didn’t want to speak for Valrun but she knew he had little desire to speak at all.

"It’s possible you won’t have much of a response, not right now… it’s possible that this is too soon." Her words held no tone or feeling in them. Just a fact, simple and like a rock.

He wasn’t sure how to feel. Didn’t know how he was supposed to feel. Where was the rule book? Surely there were rules on this somewhere. There had to be an appropriate way to react. For the life of him, Valrún didn’t know what it was.

He didn’t want to never see Howl again. He loved him. Despite all the pain, he still loved him. Love was supposed to be a bridge, wasn’t it? It kept him from feeling bitter over the treatment from his sire. He didn’t blame Ford for all the times he’d been kicked or choked or crushed under foot. But he also hadn’t chosen Ford.

Valrún could so easily have walked away from Howl that first day. The two hadn’t exactly gotten off to a great start. How different things would be now if they’d parted ways without finding out the truth.

But the little hound thought of the comfort they’d offered each other. Of the time Howl had come to Valrún when he was hurting and in pain. He’d chosen Howl. Put his faith and trust in him completely. To have that trust betrayed was crushing.

His heart was in so many pieces that the boy didn’t know where to even begin to start repairing it.

But Howl was sorry. He hadn’t meant it. That was…something, right? And yet, it brought little relief and a bit of panic. The real question remained to be answered.

Why?

Perhaps later on Howl would have to be told, often, that his loved ones were not going to turn and hurt him, that his fear was less then, well, healthy for them and not just himself. Phoenix could feel that off of her easily, standing there and simply watching.

The sorry was out, and that was the start.

The flame flickered against Howl’s chest, and slowly and silently Pho simply drifted to her knees beside the door. Not in front of it, she did not and would not have anybody feel like they were trapped. For Sera, all she did was gently nudge against their unseen link, nothing but a small comfort. 

Though the older woman did only hope that silence for them stayed. Howl was allowed to wonder and ask further things, she would simply be careful because as told, it stayed between him and Valrun in words with a minor guiding hand.

Howl ignored mother nature’s words and pressed on even if it sounded like Sera didn’t want them to rekindle.

"Val, I’m so sorry for breaking your trust, I was angry at something that wasn’t your fault and deserved my anger. I was just jealous of your relationship with Mother Nature, how you two were just closer. It pained me and I took my pain and turned it into jealously and then into anger at you. I was just afraid I’d be replaced again for someone better, thats my greatest fear, even more than water. I’m sorry truly every sorry"   

Howl was shaking too much, shoulders trembling the calming flame doing little as Howl poured his heart out. It was hard enough with Sera in the room staring and probably judging just waiting for her to call him away.

"I’m so sorry, I’m sorry i was being dumb, I’m sorry for myself, I’m sorry for everything I just want you back brother”

Howl whispered out as tears fell from his eyes as he abandoned the flame and fell to his knees covering his head to just block the impending words of mother nature telling him to go.

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xmotherovernature xofdeathandfear x;main verse

argentatephoenix:

motherovernature:

And it was good to be intimidated, it was difficult to scorn her and not upset something far deeper within. It was a challenge to keep in and contained. Seraphina pulled herself to sit on the edge of her bed, letting her skirts fall down so that Valrun was hidden fully.

Her protectiveness did not want him seen since he wished to be out of sight. Her fists curled at the edge, fingers worrying the wood as she bit her lip and starred at the ground.

When the door did relent under touch Seraphina was stoic in expression, eyes bitterly chilled and grey like the brewing storm. Her hair lacked luster, and was calm. Her gaze was on Phoenix, and it was softer than if it were to fall on Howl.

The woman would see her pain and how lost she felt, but also how much she cared and how defensive she was.

Her lack of pity would be experience, but support was always something. Yes mistakes were made but lessons learned. Hopefully. And when her senses picked up the slightest change in the door she moved first, pressing it open before gently ushering Howl in.

Howl was that verge between child and teenager, he would learn with help. And while ‘defensiveness was sometimes a good thing, sometimes her Sera had a little much. It was warranted tonight though, but as she met Sera’s eyes, golden green cat eyes softened themselves.

The slight pang of a mirror image for different things she’d yet to explain. It tugged at emotional strings but she remained quiet. If Seraphina needed she could share words through mind speak. That was always known and she did not break eye contact for the other woman’s hold as the shifter closed the door, allowing silence from the world and knowledge for those four.

When the door open and Howl caught a glance at Sera he ducked slightly behind Pho. She was terrifying and before Howl could do anything Pho pushed him into the lion’s den and the door closed leaving Howl alone with one angry hurt mother bear. Howl was visible shaking as he was instead facing what he didn’t want to face.

Pressing the flame closer to his chest as Howl looked around for Valrún but the pup was nowhere to be seen until Howl picked up his presence under the bed right behind Sera skirts. Gulping Howl looked at the floor right before Sera’s skirts and tried to imagine mother nature wasn’t in the room staring down at him, taking a deep breath Howl spoke from the heart.

"Valrún?….I’m truly sorry for what I said, it was wrong of me and I was wrong. If I could I take back every word but its been said and done, all I can do now is offer my apology and accept whatever you wish from me, if you don’t ever want to see me again thats okay, I’ll respect that and I deserve it after what I did, again I am sorry"

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xmotherovernature xofdeathandfear x;main verse xhuh as soon as he imagined Sera not there it became easier xto him Sera is not there or even exists in this moment :/

Name: Howlmun

—✩❧ FC (If you have one): 

I was tagged by: argentatephoenix

tagging: fearlingdevil nightmarexking thestrangewomannamedsophie thenightmaregeneral

  • OCCUPATION: College student
  • DRINK | SMOKE | DRUGS: Nope | Nope | Nope
  • LIKE[S]: rain, cloudy days, cold, long socks, long sleeves, movies, writing, animals, there’s a lot more though
  • PERSONALITY TRAITS: Kinda a talkative person, always have something to say and an opinion on everything, though gets extremely nervous and think of the worst case scenarios {Sounds like a certain muse}
  • DISORDERS?: None that i don’t know of

{ P H Y S I C A L   I N F O R M A T I O N }

  • GENDER: Female
  • HAIR COLOR: Blond brown
  • EYE COLOR: Green 
  • HEIGHT:  5’4
  • PHYSIQUE: Consider underweight though am what is described as the ‘perfect’ women’s body, thigh gap, big boobs for how skinny i am, like you can see my collarbone, wrist bone and hip bones sticking out
  • TATTOOS: Nope
  • RACE: White

{ F A M I L Y   I N F O R M A T I O N }

  • SIBLING[S]: One younger brother
  • PARENT[S]: Mom and Dad
  • CHILDREN: None, though I do want one but seems having children is a dying fab but hey i would like some
  • PET[S]:  A mutt dog and a turtle are currently living in my house

{ R E L A T I O N S H I P   I N F O R M A T I O N }

  • SEXUAL PREFERENCE: Straight as a fucking arrow
  • RELATIONSHIP STATUS: nobody I’m lonely 
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